Today I am twelve weeks pregnant.
I’ve spent the day comparing how I feel now to how I felt during my first pregnancy three years ago.
I remember the feeling of triumph and relief reaching twelve weeks. Up until that point, I really didn’t allow myself to get excited about being pregnant.
The past Fall, (I got pregnant in the Spring) I had a miscarriage. My feelings of loss rocked my world, which really surprised me. I didn’t know whether I’d ever want to have children before that happened. I learned a lot about myself through that experience.
So when I hit that “magical” twelve week point in the Spring, I slowly and steadily allowed myself to get excited about expecting.
Over the course of my pregnancy, I learned how to really love my body – something I had always struggled with before.
I adored my new curves and growing belly.
I felt beautiful inside and out, admiring how my female body worked.
Today I realized I have been excited about this pregnancy for weeks.
I was glad and began planning nearly upon taking the positive test.
I couldn’t wait to tell the Bring Birth Home community, wanting to share my thoughts, ask questions and feel a special connection to the other women taking the journey of pregnancy along with me.
And I wanted support. As much support as I could get.
See, the difference is this time around is a big one: I have an almost 2 year old daughter running around. Taking care of a toddler is no small task.
I knew I would need support in the beginning when I was slammed with the fatigue of the first trimester.
And the second, when I want to get in some much needed exercise in order to be strong and healthy.
Finally, I would need support to help with Ella during our home birth. What if Ella didn’t want to be there? Who would she go with and where would they go?
And all those little times in-between, I need emotional support.
There are three main groups of people I can get support from:
1) Eric – the BBH Dad
2) Family – Grandma, Mom, mother in law
3) Friends – specifically friends who are mothers
They know where I am coming from unlike anyone else. They’ve gone through pregnancy not long ago and are emotional creatures like myself.
But they can’t always be there, especially when I need lunch (and fast!). Or when I haven’t gotten much sleep and need to send Ella over to play at Grandma’s house.
I am grateful for the support I have even though I so often feel like I could use more.
And that’s twelve weeks for ya. Until next time…thanks for reading!
Did you miss the first pregnancy update?
Read it here: Pregnancy Update: Living for Three = One Tired Mommy